queersecrets:

Unposted facebook status saying: In 8th grade, end of year, I came out as a Bisexual to certain friends. Freshman year of high school, I came out as a Bisexual to my friends, my family, my school. At the end of the year, I found out I was polyamorous but finding someone to accept that was hard.By my Sophomore year, I was a Lesbian to several-though I had had a few boyfriends. My Junior year I came to terms with myself that I felt more like a man, than anything. I always had. But I was confused so I let people call me whatever. I was a gender-queer. My Senior year I had came out as a Lesbian but I was engaged to a guy. In August of 2011 I came out as a FtM. But now - more guys notice me, more Gay guys.  Watch me end up being a Gay FtM. But having sex with guys doesn’t do much for me anymore, hasn’t in over a year. But I can be attracted to their looks, so damn attracted. At this point I just wished I was born a Cis-gender monogamous Bisexual male. Because this is all so fucking confusing. >:/ And there’s a lot of terms I said I would never use in this. Fuck.My.Life >:/

Holy. Fucking. Shit.
This person literally just discribed my life, down to the grades, the coming out, the engagement, the genders…
Person, I fucking love you.

I just feel like I can’t freely rant about anything anywhere else. I am aware that no one is reading this, but who cares, right?

No one understands me, or anything I say anymore.

Ryan, if by any chance somehow you read this, I still need you. I’m just getting better at hiding it (barely).

Love has ruined my life.